Amazed.

I sometimes feel like i'm not worthy.

I often pull myself down. Cause, in my opinion I'm not good enough.

Eventhough I never saw the definition of being good enough.

I'm sure I wouldn't fit in.

I never knew where it all started.

But I know that my 6th grade teacher was really concerned about that.

I wish I could change.

Think about it, it's running in my blood, my veins... crossing my mind since I'm like 11yrs old.

How could it possibly change....

Even if I'd succeed in absolutely everything in my life, I'd still find something that makes it all....

Unperfect.

Unvaluable.

Unimportant.

I don't blame anyone else than myself.

I think I know the source of that lack of self confidence.

I always wanted to be great.

To amazed.

Even if some of you might think I already am...

Let me tell you this, I wanted to be nothing less than an Olympic Athlete.

Gymnastics was my thing. I didn't start early enough. At 15, I still wasn't in the competition team. Although I tried... I wasn't physically though enough. Or was it mentally... Which one leads when the body suffers so much?

Anyhow.

I never got my dream.

So, I've been trying to create other dreams ever since.

Will I be good enough this time?

Or will I quit before being halfway.

Being strong once is easy. Staying strong regardless of everything that comes in my way is something else.

I'll always remember it was late afternoon.

It lasted forever and ended so soon.

You were all by yourself staring up at a dark grey sky.

I was changed.

It's now that I realized that forever was in HIS eyes.